Surrender 🌹

This transition from Fall to Winter has been an exercise in surrender for me.

Surrendering to the needs of my family over my business. Over the last 8 weeks, my children and I have been taking turns passing germs around, getting sick. Centering tenderness, compassion, and care over appointments and expectations. Surrendering my internalized capitalist compulsions in favor of nurturing, nourishment, and rest.

Surrendering to the guidance my spirits offer to me, the affection my children extend to me, the love my closest friends share with me, the care my partner generously provides to me rather than insisting that I experience difficulty alone.

Surrendering to the misbeliefs I have about myself. Acknowledging them, finding their root, gently and persistently untangling the knots they’ve created in the way I know myself. Surrendering to the Truths about me that are much kinder, gentler, and beautiful - accepting my worthiness rather than fighting against it.

Surrendering to the truth that I won’t always be able to help every client through every experience. A truth that I was conscious and accepting of, but had yet to experience in a big way until this month. One that I am still grappling with, still trying to understand how to show up with grace and love while maintaining necessary boundaries.

Surrendering my fear of letting others down, of being less than what they’ve expected. Accepting that I am who I am, that the only things within my control are my actions, my behaviors, my choices, and that there is only so much of me and my time and energy to go around.

All of this new awareness, sponsored by Surrender, has caused me to shift a lot of my plans, availability, and offerings for next year. I’ll share more about this at another time…

What has this season been revealing to you? What have you learned about yourself during these months of the Moon?

The Winter Solstice comes soon; how will you alchemize what you’ve come to know as Truth, as the Sun returns to shed their light?