TRUST 🌹

I sat at my altar under this New Moon dreaming of all of the things that I desire for myself, my family, my friends, my community, and this world.

As I allowed myself to sit in these dreams, the familiar feeling of doubt began to creep in.

I watched as my Doubt slowly dismantled my dreams one by one…

Picking them apart, challenging my trust. My kids took turns interrupting my focus with their night time requests… one more hug. Another bottle of water. A new set of sheets for the tiny one who wet the bed.

Doubt fed on these interruptions - how will you ever accomplish anything when you can’t sit through one thing??

As I hugged the babies and tucked them back in, another familiar friend found me… Gratitude.

Gratitude for the patience I have cultivated in this chapter of my life.

Patience made possible by the fact that I don’t work a 9-6 job anymore. That I don’t spend hours in traffic everyday. That I don’t pickup my kids last from after school care anymore - but instead am there right when the bell rings, and I even get to participate in all of their after school extracurriculars.

Gratitude that I’m not angry and exhausted, scrambling to make dinner at 7 or 7:30pm. Gratitude that through will and prayers I was able to get them into a public school that is arts and restorative justice focused, that is accepting of queer and trans children, a school where they have real friends for the first time ever.

Grateful that I have real friends for the first time ever. Grateful for my supportive partner who goes above and beyond, working long hours, planning family adventures, helping me in any and every way he can. Grateful that the work I do is my dream job - a job of magick and mystery and spirits.

And from that Gratitude, my Doubt transformed to Trust.

Trust that my Spirits have done everything up to this moment to help me live a beautiful life - I life that not so long ago felt impossible. A life that not so long ago I felt unworthy of. Trust that the dreams I had swirling around in my head a few hours ago are not only possible, but are part of my destiny.

Trust that my Good Spirits will continue to grant me the clarity to see the path in front of me, the courage to walk that path, and the capacity to do whatever the Good Spirits ask of me along the way.

So I refreshed my altars’ water glasses, fixed and lit my candle, and prepared a platter of offerings. Along with the sweets, treats, and tobacco, I offered my Good Spirits my Trust. I wrote (and finished, uninterrupted) my petition, and sat with my friends, Gratitude and Trust.

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